Here goes, and I hope I will be able to sleep tonight after this post.
This morning I woke up to the most wonderful, random comment ever! My brother wrote this:
I am Tricia’s brother. SIS, I am so proud of all you have accomplished. You are a good friend, a good wife to my brother in law and about the best mom anyone has ever seen! I am blessed to have a truly wonderful person like you in my life. And since we are related, your stuck with me in yours!
To all the fans out there, I will let you in on a little story about pickey… she got that name as a very young child. It was just something that happened. As she grew it became a name that fit so well! So she never lost it. She is pickey, she wants the best and demands that of her self. She is not stuck up, but has a good evaluation of her self worth. I have seen her art develop through the years and having the computer as her newest medium has allowed her to express her true creativeness.
Trish, you are a very talented and a good person. I love you! ( WAR EAGLE ) p.s. mom says I should tell the story of ” Princess Pickey Poo” lol, that should raise some questions… lol I’m still your brother.
Now.. back story, he has not always liked my art.. to say the least. We have very different taste, and I never cared ( too much) to each is own. So for him to actually go out and compliment me in such a way was a shock and Blessing! Made me feel so special to be his sister!
Tonight: I received a random Email from my Grandma, a woman who I have ALWAYS looked up to and respected my whole life. When things were at my worst in my life, she was always there to love, encourage and guide me.
Email Subject Line: Broken Heart
Message: Matthew 6:33 “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
That was it. So I of course called her. It went on to how disappointed she is that I am not giving God the glory through my art… how sad she is… Whoa!
I have never been so hurt, hearing this from a woman I respect. I left the phone conversation saying it is OK, but in all reality, it is not. I am still crying as I type this, hence me having to get it out…
I want to clarify a few things.
I believe God is WHY I have the talent I do! I have NEVER tried to shame HIM or my family. It is through his Grace I am the woman I am today. It is through HIM that I am blessed with the most wonderful loving husband ever and the most beautiful, healthy children. It is through HIM that I place my trust, love and faith that HE will provide for my family and friends.
You CAN NOT believe in GOD and not the devil. Sorry.. but that is the way it is. You can not believe that Angels exist with out the Demons!
Reading about that and what could play out in a realm, I can not see as a human, makes me think deeper on God’s infinite creativity!!
I read ROMANCE…. God is LOVE!! Read Song of Solomon chapter in the Bible, tell me that is not a sexy, steamy, sweet, perfect romance story! HE wrote that to guide us, to have that LOVE with our partners. It is HIS guide.
I have never in all my life denied my love for GOD!
I do not normally feel the need to state my personal beliefs to the masses, but in this instance I do. I am not a judgmental person and never push my beliefs on others. That is NOT my place and never will be. I love you for who you are and how you carry yourself as a person. No matter what your religion, political, sexual views are. That is LOVE…. judgement is NOT.
So in closing ( I sound like a lawyer! LOL ) Please, never think I intentionally try to offend anyone with my art, or my statements.
Take me for who I am, and how I conduct myself with you, please. Thanks!